Again and again, u disappoint me!

The date is already set and yet, u do this to me!

Maybe to you, it's something small

but from this incident, I can see your priorities and

sadly, I am not among them.

As usual, u pay higher regard to work than me.

This is not the first time, nor it will be the last.

Your suggestions sux!
I have already told you about this date

and I know even if there will be work to do,

I will prefer to spend time with you,

even at the expense of burning midnight oil!

I am so tired of nagging at you, you think it's so fun to get angry???

You think it's so easy to blog?

And you continue to ignore my pleas and

continue to do things at your own pace and will.

AND YOU ALREADY FORGET TO WRITE FOR ME EVERY NIGHT!

Mr Tan, this is not the way to do things.
Everytime when I get angry, you will start to panic,

wake up real early to buy breakfast for me,

start to write in the book,

start to vomit and have headache,

To others, this is called concern.

If you are not concerned about me, you wouldn't even bother to look at me.
But to me, this is meaningless; doing things at the last minute doesn't help you much. Should there be one day that I died, what will then happen?

I don't remember you telling to meet you at Eight-flags hor!

And try to smoke me by saying I have a poor memory!!

I even sms you when I m at canteen A that I am going to SAO hor!!!

And you din even sms me that I get the place wrong!!!!

The worse thing is you din even read my sms!!!!!

The worst thing is you even take so long to ans my call,

and you still dare to say you still in project meeting!!!!!!

The next worst thing is you take longer time to reach 8flags than me when I already try my best to meet you before the end of the appointed time!!!!!!!

Please lor, Mister. It's your life, your laptop, your IC. Even if I am your gf, I only take half of it. The other half is still yours loh! I am not in charge of your life, neither do I owe you anything. Dun take me for granted!

I have already discharged my responsibility by asking you at least 6 months ago to update your address in your IC, by meeting you to sign the contract despite the sweat, anger and frustrations, by making sure that I wake up on time to sign the contract despite my tiredness.

If time means...

burning out passion,

degrading sensitivity,

exhausting spirit,

diluting excitement,

impairing endurance,

subduing vitality,

extinguishing love,

then I rather live in eternity,

where time cease to exist,

where there is only you and me...

You may think that I am overly demanding and especially unreasonable. YES, I am, especially forced to do so.

I have to admit that I have seen changes in you for that past but then you are still very much keep to yourself. I seriously only have a simple wish:- You are a happy man. I wish to see you open up and not keep EVERYTHING to yourself. Your girlfriend likes to share everything with you!

Moreover, you breached your words to take care of her, or I shall say you have never promise to take care of her. Can you treasure her like everyday is the last day of you two together? Do you rather want to grieve and sob in front of her tomb , regreting that you have not toldl her some of the words that you wanted to let her know?

I will leave words in my msn, sometimes leave notes on my table deliberately so that you will see. BUT you always fail to do so! Can you kindly be more observant?

And mind you, you dun live in a world of your own. THERE ARE OTHERS IN THIS WORLD!!! These include your family, relatives, your girlfriend, and your girlfriend's family and relatives. I wish to see you interact with others confidently and happily, and not always on your own in a corner eating gua zi.

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