Wednesday, April 19, 2006
9:11 AM
Had a lot of things to tell u... waited for u from 10plus to 12am... subconciously waited for u from night til morning... you called once (I think, or izit in my dreams??)... it was a rush one... and I can't rem what we talked about... All I know is you hang up fast, so fast that you gave me no chance to tell you that I miss you... and I have alot of things to tell you...
- there is a new Sakae sushi near JP
- I told you I wan to buy a BATA shoe rite? search for days only to realise JP has BATA
- Dunno JP BATA got the shoe I wan anot
- I am excited, can't wait til the next day to go JP
- I couldn't get to deep sleep, just like the day before
- I still miss you
- I vomit again, more blood... I am scared...
- My table is super blardy messy
- and I forgot to buy the big big tape
- Does your headache attack you again?
- I want to go to the funeral, do you think I should go?
I hope to tell you these little little things so that it will kinda distract you from the unhappy things... I hope you can overcome the grief of losing your beloved Grandma (whom I know really dotes on you)... I dunno whether this will work coz I have no chance to talk to you... guess you are busy and tired... same here... tired mentally...
waiting for you
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
12:52 AM
Luckily you called... hahah!
Do you know that I almost cry when I hear your voice???
Tat's me I guess, too sentimental... Too cry-baby...
waiting for you
brought my laundry to wash, waiting for it now... OOppz... sorry nv help u to wash urs... u know lah, I am just a weak gal.... If my clothes are not flooding my room (physically hor, not the smell nope no smell de), I won't bother...
Vomited again... those bread, vegetarian curry, peanuts came out like nobody business...
Miss your shokubutsu smell lingering around you....
If I nv sms you, would you bother to reply and check what I am doing???
Damn freaking tired... guess I can only sleep at 1.30am... sad sad sad
Did your family members ask you about me? *wondering*
May not be a good time to ask so I din ask you... but this is the first time I show face rite... Kinda care abt pple's impressions and opinions abt me... *blushed*
I am just... not tactful enough...
I guess you dun really miss me... coz you dun bother to look for phone to call me... and reply only those I ask you... darling, pls open up k... waiting for that day when you will talk to me more... am I demanding too much from you???
waiting for you
Sunday, April 16, 2006
7:43 PM
seems ages when I last post about something unhappy abt you... Doesnt mean nothing happen, it just mean I am lazy to type, or it could be a series of events that is hard to describe, or simply it is not worth my effort to write...
I understand, really... that it's your Grandma's death and you are really upset over it...
I am upset too, because someone has passed away, because you are unhappy, because my xiaobaobei died too...
What upset me most today is your attitude... Of coz, you must be busy there but a little gesture of offering to bring your friend(s) to the area where the funeral is is a form of courtesy... I am sure if it's your friends you will surely offer to fetch them from the MRT...
Please don't ASSUME that everyone know the area as well as you do... Certainly after 2 years together, you know that I am bad at directions... Even if in the past few attempts I manage to find my way home doesnt render me a navigation expert... What's worst is you ask me what happen... Probably this is something small to you, but it mean alot to me...
It's not the first time that you abandon me and leave me alone to find my way to the destination (there is AT Least twice - Rotaract Event at Fort Canning)... You assume that I can do it... does it come to you that I am not as strong as you think I am? Does it occur to you that I MIGHT lose my way and some accident happen to me??
That's you - You want to assume all responsibility, to your club, your hall, your work and study, your family and left me fending for myself... I am tired, really tired... Everytime something happen, you will leave me by myself... I wanted to get inside your heart, to care for you and everything that happen to you... But you shut me out, and throw me into deep abyss and I have to climb back up to your heart... That's tiring...
I am tired, really do...
when will you open up?
waiting for you
Monday, April 10, 2006
9:58 PM
Woohoo~ finally decided that we will go Batam for my graduation trip... hehe... $200++ per pax, spa included~ cheap cheap cheap...
*looking forward*
waiting for you
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